Reality!

WOW! Well I guess it's about time that I had a good reality check. I just didn't realise it would be this hurtful. If thats even the right way to explain it.

Well there have been quite a few checks but one stands out.

When I was younger Missionaries always seemed much older and more mature, and I guess I always imagined I would be one I just didn't imagine that part.

Well we just got two new missionaries. We got to talking and they were awesome young men. We talked about where they were from and then the conversation turned to dating and his "story" well I haven't traveled down one of those roads either. So then age came up and guess what! I am almost 2 years older that him! WHAT IS THAT! I guess I just realized that I am geting older and most of the missionaries are now younger that me! I was so taken back it took me about 2 whole days to finally snap out of couldn't get over the fact when I go into the MTC, if I ever flippin get there I will be older than most of my fellow comps. I was very upset.

Well needless to say, I got over it and realised that this is one of those things that the Lord is preparing me for. I guess through all of this I have learned that: I will be taught things in my own time and I shouldn't care that it has taken me this long to do the right things. I know what needs to be done and I know that for some reason My Heavenly Father and Jesus Christ need me to learn paicience or self-control they may even need me here for right now.

But I know that since I am doing the right things I will be blessed and I will recive those blessings when the Lord thinks I need them. Until then... I will CONTINUE!!